February Diary — Day Dreaming Again
The weather is still bitterly cold.
I’m sitting at my kitchen table this morning, snow falling outside, a cup of coffee warming my hands in my blue striped, slightly wonky mug. Life has been slowly… life-ing. And I say that gently.
This past weekend was my birthday. Another year around the sun. Of course, I found myself looking back, thinking about goals unmet, timelines that didn’t quite unfold the way I had hoped. But some seasons of life are simply about surviving.
And if I’m honest, I’m still in that kind of season this year — just getting through each day.
My birthday weekend was really lovely though.
Nothing grand. Just wandering through new shops and galleries, chatting with shop owners, thrifting, and sharing good food. The kind of quiet celebration that reminds you you’re still here. Still figuring out how you want to show up this year.
I’ve put shows on pause.
I’m not even sure if it was intentional.
Some deadlines passed me by. Some applications were never submitted because I had already convinced myself I wouldn’t be accepted. Others were cancelled. And truthfully, the thought of lugging my tent and handmade goods from show to show, praying for good weather, coming home exhausted after a full day at my day job only to make more — it all became too much. I’m sure I’ll pick up a pop-up here or there.
But you may find me this year making because I want a new bowl for dinner. Making because there’s a celebration coming up. Making because I want to see my dream turn into reality.
Speaking of dreaming…
I’ve always felt like a daydreamer. I don’t often remember my dreams at night — maybe I never get enough sleep to reach them — so I resort to dreaming during the day.
You know that feeling when your mind wanders and suddenly you can envision an entire scene?
I can see the garden I’m always talking about.I can imagine having you over for tea in a magical little space.I can picture new pieces on the worktable.A new version of this life slowly taking shape.What are you dreaming about this season?
