Finding My Purpose Again
Its bitterly cold outside. Its so cold outside that I just want to stay inside snuggled on the sofa with tons of blankets, a cup of tea, and the soft glow of my grandmas vintage beaded glass lamp. At this very moment, I am indeed snuggled on the sofa, day dreaming by the soft warm glow of the vintage lamp. Well its actually not day, its night, but I’m not sleeping, so this isn’t actually dreaming, or day dreaming, my mind is just swirling with thoughts of what I want to do this year, places I would love to visit, and just this feeling that I’m headed in the direction that aligns with my self, and my purpose. Is it still considered “day dreaming” if its not day time? This is how my brain works.
To be honest, I have felt so very off track the past few years. I thought if I just stayed on this course, the very crooked and winding road of life would straighten out and everything would be okay with the world, but it hasn’t. I still feel lost at times, “lost with no direction” So I’m taking very small baby steps this year to align myself with the direction that I want to be headed into. Even though I still have no idea what direction to take!
When I started Blue Rochelle, I simply knew I wanted to create. I wanted to spend time with my son, and share those creations with the universe. And I get to do that. I am so very grateful that I get to share my work with you. I love creating, and sharing these moments with you, but I cant help but to feel in my gut that there is something more I am supposed to do. Maybe not "more" but something different. Or is this just my gut getting all mixed up and is just as lost?
Dear 2025,
I want to take deep breaths, and savor moments,
I want to find my strength and my courage,
I want to feel the sand in my toes and the cool grass beneath my feet.
I want to be surrounded by nature, and feel it deeply in my soul.
I want to feel, I want the road to be a little less crooked (just a little bit), and find my purpose again.
Sincerely,
Tisha
